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Still On My Journey…Learning More…..Sometimes With My Heels Dug In…..

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I can’t believe I haven’t posted anything since May – and here it is October! A lot has been going on for sure. Some of it has been tough, but I lean heavily on God and He always sees me through!

As mentioned in this previous post, my daughter and son-in-law moved down south.  They are doing well though we are all missing each other like crazy.  My daughter had some serious home-sickness going on for a bit – but I think she is doing better now.

They both came back up a few weeks ago for a visit.  While here, many of their friends came out to the house for a little party.  It sure was fun seeing everyone together again!  And most recently they were here for the wedding of ‘my other daughter’ – as you may have read on previous posts….she is my daughter’s best friend.  They call each other ‘sister’ and I’m ‘Mom’ to her.

I also mentioned that the new job I got after being laid-off was not very enjoyable.  I didn’t want to complain about the job I had after losing the other one…but I was miserable.  I didn’t want to come across as being ungrateful. It was during this time though, that I started learning that I was not leaning on God as much as I thought.

I was so ‘worried’ about being laid-off that I grabbed the first job that came along rather than praying about it and relying on God to open doors for me.  Again, which has been typical in my life, I was trying to be in control and manipulate my situation.

If you read this earlier post of mine, then you will understand my thought process here.  Of course it wasn’t until after I started the new job and began to reflect on my situation that I came to realize that I was still struggling with ‘unbelief’. Though I had faith that God would provide, my unbelief came about in thinking that I needed to jump on that job because there might not be another offer rather than waiting on Him.  So I spent almost 6 months in a job that I was unhappy with and that was not a good fit – for me or the employer.

During this time, I kept studying and learning about God’s grace and His desire to provide for us, His children.  Most recently it dawned on me….

Just as an earthly parent, God does not want His children to suffer, be ill, in pain or live in poverty.  He wants only the best for us.  I have always said I believed that….but I think deep down I always felt like I wasn’t living up to whatever it was in my mind that I thought I should be or be doing for Him.  I felt that because I was ‘failing’ or falling short of what I thought He wanted….then why would He shower me with abundance?  If I couldn’t take care of the little, why would He give me more?

Don’t get me wrong – I’m not talking about doing ‘works’ in order to get to heaven.  But just as with my own children….they may do things that are not what I would choose for them…and they may even disappoint me from time to time.  But would I want them to suffer, do without, hurt?  No way!  So why would I assume God would be any different?

I heard someone say that maybe we shouldn’t be asking God for ‘just enough’ – meaning, why do we ask Him for things like giving us just enough to live comfortably, or feel better, or pay our bills?  We are children of God.  We were made righteous by Christ.  So we should claim it!  We have power through Christ!

So I recently sat down and had a lengthy conversation with my Father.  And I laid it all at the feet of my Savior. It finally made sense to me! I gave thanks.  I cried. And rejoiced.  And cried some more.  But afterwards I felt so much lighter and I could definitely feel a difference.  The burdens were gone.

Very shortly after that…things started happening for me:

First of all, I hurt my back carrying something at work that was WAY to heavy.  And I was laying in bed on the 3rd night of the worst pain I have ever been in.  But through the misery – I kept repeating thanks over and over for the healing.  And sure enough, the pain went away without seeking medical care.

Every time I found my mind wanting to head down in the dumps or start with the negative thoughts – I would correct myself and say thanks to my Father.  I gave thanks for my healing (we are healed by his stripes….) and thanks for His provision. Let me tell you….it was not – and still isn’t – a natural or automatic thing for me.  I am so used to thinking ‘here we go again’ or something negative…and then gearing up to deal with it.  So, I have had to repeat many, many times that I do not have to carry the burden….God’s got this!

Next, I got a call from someone that I have always considered a mentor of mine.  I had worked with him in the past and though we parted ways years ago, I would still do some ‘virtual assistant’ jobs for him from time to time.  I also know his boss – the owner of the company in which he works now – from that same time period in our past.  He asked me to stop in to help them with some personnel issues.  I agreed.

When I got there, both of them were there telling me about how some things had changed within the company – and they wanted to offer me a job!!!  You have to understand – I have wanted to work for them for years!  And here it was, out of the clear blue, being offered!  Needless to say, I accepted the job.

Within the first week – I was given a raise…to cover the healthcare premiums – so that it wouldn’t cut into my take home pay. Can you believe that!?  I was also assured that I would be getting my pay bumped up very soon.

Then came the realization that I was most likely going to lose my insurance on my home – due to ‘forgetting’ (Fibro Fog) to pay it…and my first check was coming in exactly one week later than the cut-off date.  Again I found myself starting to get stressed.  But I reminded myself that God’s got this….and I was just along for the ride.

Sure enough – no quicker had those thoughts crossed my mind when my boss asked me how I was with the gap between my last job’s payday and this one.  I told him I was figuring it out.  He told me to give him a figure and he would advance it to me.  I did.  He did.  When I asked about re-paying it…..I was told not to worry about it right now.  So, house insurance was paid – literally within 4 hours of it being cancelled!

For many – this may sound like small potatoes….but for me – this is huge!  For the first time in my life, I feel that things are going to be good for me!  I no longer feel like I screwed up and therefore it is what it is!  Of course there will still be things to come up and I will probably have to remind myself another few hundred times to let things go….but I’m confident that it will become easier as I’m growing and learning more!

Next on my list is my health – again, I’ve spoken with God about this and I am confident that my body is repairing itself and I will no longer suffer.  For now, I find that when I’m getting caught up in the ‘unbelief’ – my Fibro starts acting up.  Once I claim healing and refuse to worry about the situation the symptoms recede.  I believe that for now this is my little reminder to help get me back on track.  But I also fully believe that I am healed and that my healthy body will manifest once I learn to accept the gift given to me.

And finally…..relationships.  I’m not sure where I’m going here yet.  But I’m trusting God to lead me.  At the moment, with all of the pain and mistrust I’ve experienced in this area….I do not want an intimate relationship with another man…ever!  But at the same time, I find myself lonely and wishing for companionship.  However, I will wait on my Father and see what He has in mind for me.  Maybe it’s more than I can ever dream of…..or maybe I’m not supposed to have another man in my life….either way, I’m good with that.

F.R.O.G. = Fully Relying On God…..that’s the fun part….once you learn to relax and go with it!

Take Time to Reflect

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I just got back from the BEST vacation!  We haven’t been on an out-of-town vacation in almost 4 years – so needless to say, it was MUCH needed.  But besides that, God revealed a lot of things to me.

Briefly I will tell you that we live in the Texas Panhandle – if you have never been here before, let me say that it is hot, dry and flat.  No trees.  Very little water.  And windy – very, very windy.  We do have the second-largest canyon in the country (Palo Duro Canyon) – and it is something to see!  The beauty here is in the people.  We have the friendliest people around – and that is a true blessing!

For vacation, we headed to the nearest mountains (see the picture I took above!).  We stayed in Red River, NM.  I’m not a person who enjoys snow — so mountains in the summer is my kind of fun.  We spent our time doing the following: fireworks on the lake, watched a parade, grilled, mountain climbing/hiking, tubing down the slopes, off-roading and water rafting.

During our time there, I was able to reflect on a few things.  For instance, I was witness to some little spats that took place within the couples.  Being older than they are, having been there, done that and being single again, gave me a different perspective.  In some ways it was like Deja vu – because I remember thinking/saying/acting in similar ways.  But I could also see where I had matured past a lot of it and I now know that I handled things in the best way I could in my marriage.  It was like God was allowing me to witness these things to let me know that maybe, just maybe I needed to forgive myself a bit more.  I have always been critical of myself and though I thought I had moved on, I suppose that I still blamed myself for ‘failing’ in my marriage. So this let me know that 1) I no longer need to second-guess my thoughts/feelings on certain things and 2) It always takes two – so it isn’t all my fault.

I experienced some pain that I thought had healed through the years when I learned of some unkind, hurtful words being told to another.  It brought back memories.  It hurt and it helped – if that makes any sense.  My heart hurt witnessing someone going through the same stuff I had and at the same time it reminded me that what I experienced in my past was not because I’m such a ‘bad’ person or unworthy person – but rather the insecurities of the person saying the hurtful things.

I also learned to lighten up and laugh a little more.  You know, being around young adults is definitely an experience!  It helped to remind me to be happy and enjoy my life a little more. And it helped to get me off my duff and move – to do something active. AND – to drink more water – LOL!

Sometimes we get so wrapped up in existing in this world that we forget to really look around.  We forget to pause and take a look at what He has provided. So I am also thankful that I was able to enjoy God’s beautiful creations there.  We saw it rain every afternoon – where that would normally put a damper on one’s activities – we danced in it!  We would stand like goobs and simply breathe.  It was fantastic!  I must admit, when we got back home to the dry 100-degree temps – I was a bit disgusted.  I keep telling myself to mellow out though – LOL

And – it has inspired me to really do some serious praying about guidance and seeking God’s will for me.  For a couple of years now, I have had a desire to make a living in a different field – but I typically squash it down and try to ignore it.  I have obligations.  I can’t see how I could do anything else.  Blah, blah, blah……but now I’m thinking, why not!?  If God has put this desire in my heart, I should be listening – right?  So, that is my goal.  I will keep my heart and mind open and wait for His lead.

I also discovered that though I thought I was pretty stress-free these days, apparently I’m not as much as I thought.  No wonder I’m still struggling with my Fibromyalgia (mainly the Fibro-fog) and weight/health issues.  Yes, I’m better than I was – thank you, Father!  But I experienced true peace and contentment while away from the daily grind.  And I want that in my life!  So, I have decided to work on that a little more. Progress not perfection – as the saying goes.

And finally, I was simply able to truly enjoy my family.  I love my family.  We are tight.  But this allowed us to forget the daily stresses of life and just have fun.  It’s been a long time, folks.  I saw my 7-year old mature right before my eyes.  My daughter is struggling with a few things and that in itself is growth.  My heart aches for her at times – but I’m so darn proud of her too!  She has her own business at the young age of 20 years old – not many can say that, you know.  I love my son-in-law.  He is intelligent and responsible and he loves my daughter.  My ‘other’ daughter – I call her that, she’s my daughter’s best friend — I finally got to know her a little more (she’s always been so quiet though I’ve known her for years).  I’m proud of her too – she has grown into a beautiful young lady and she has a bright future ahead of her.  And I got to know her boyfriend – and I like him.  A lot. Not to mention that he saved my bacon when I went overboard on the rafting trip – LOL!

And then there is my dad.  He didn’t go with us.  But he stayed behind and tended to my pets on top of running my ex-husband’s business while he is out of the country.  I don’t know what we would do without him.  I’m 48 years old and still tend to run to him for advice.  We all do.  He’s a great man and I thank God for him every single day!

Coming back home I found a few more things to appreciate (once I got over the disgust of the extreme temps).  I learned that some of my daughter’s friends were disappointed that we were gone over the 4th of July holiday.  We typically have a cookout at my place and they had wanted to do it again this year.  It’s nice to know that they (being teens and young adults) feel they can come out and have a good time and that they don’t mind being around an ‘adult’ (me) – so I must be okay.

Bottom line, I found a greater appreciation for my job, my home, my life and my church.  Though I have a desire to do other things – I will be content where I’m at until God shows me that it is time to do something different.  I have faith that I am yet on another exciting journey with my Father and that He will shower me and my family with many more blessings.

Hope you are having a great summer and please, take time to thank God for the blessings He has provided.

As a side note:  a friend of mine is listing 10 things he is thankful for each day on Facebook.  I’m thinking that is not a bad idea.  I may start doing that too in order to keep my mind on the lookout for the positive and the good things in life!

Words for Women to Live By

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Words for Women to Live By (Received in an email recently)

1. Aspire to be Barbie – the witch has everything. 

2. If the shoe fits – buy them in every color. 

3. Take life with a pinch of salt… A wedge of lime, and a shot of tequila. 

4. In need of a support group? – Cocktail hour with the girls! 

5. Go on the 30 day diet. (I’m on it and so far I’ve lost 15 days). 

6. When life gets you down – just put on your big girl panties and deal with it. 

7. Let your greatest fear be that there is no PMS and this is just your personality. 

8. I know I’m in my own little world, but it’s ok. They know me here. 

9. Lead me not into temptation, I can find it myself. 

10. Don’t get your knickers in a knot; it solves nothing and makes you walk funny.

11. When life gives you lemons – buy some Coronas. 

12. Forget about the perfect man – he’s living in San Fran with his boyfriend. 

13. Keep your chin up, only the first 40 years of parenthood are the hardest. 

14. If it has tires or testicles it’s gonna give you trouble. 

15. By the time a women realizes her mother was right, she has a daughter who thinks she’s wrong. 

‘Good friends are like stars… You don’t always see them, but you know they are always there’

‘Remember yesterday, dream about tomorrow, but live for today’.

Now smile and share with any girl wasting time at work, suffering from a hangover, or just suffering from life, she might need a reason to smile!

Passion – Do You Know What Excites You?

Okay – let me start off by telling you this is NOT an X-rated post.  Nope, no sex or intimacy here….

So, if you are still with me after that ‘disclaimer’ – let me tell you what I’m talking about.  Unless you’ve had your head in the sand lately – there is very little chance that you haven’t heard and seen the stories of the weather-related disasters.

There have been floods, the Alabama tornadoes, the Joplin, Mo. tornado, Oklahoma tornadoes and if you live in my neck of the woods – there are wildfires again.  In the past 24 hours alone – there have been fires on both sides of me – within 20 miles or so on the north and south of my home.

All of this excitement/trauma has led me to take a real close look at my life.  I’ve mentioned this before….but hang with me for a few moments.  I don’t believe I’m the only one doing this either.  Someone at work today said that she was thinking about the things she would lose if ever something happened to her home.  She said she realized that everything that is ‘important’ to her is sitting at the top of a closet.  “Not the best place to have that stuff – I need to move it!” she said.

Back in February we had to evacuate my dad’s place – get things moved out quick because the wildfires were bearing down quickly and he was out of town.  I made a call to ask him what he wanted me to move.  It’s hard to think straight when you get slammed with that type of decision without notice.  So, he wasn’t even sure.  We made the decisions for him.  I remember when that ordeal was over – I found myself considering my own belongings and what I would want to take with me.

So besides material belongings – I also find myself taking a closer look at my life in general.  And today, I saw a brief discussion on the news about what Oprah Winfrey wants for people – what final advice that she has for the public in general.  They also interviewed Dr. Phil – and he basically said the same thing.

That thing?  It was to find your passion.  Know your passion.  LIVE your passion.  Someone mentioned how difficult that is for some people because it’s all they can do to make ends meet.  To work, pay their bills and feed their families.  Both Dr. Phil and Oprah said that it doesn’t have to ‘cost anything’ and it doesn’t have to be a huge ordeal.  They said that it just needs to be something that you enjoy.  Something that makes you feel good.  Something that gives you purpose so you aren’t merely existing in this life.

The interesting thing for me is that I’ve struggled for years – all of my adult life, actually – with wondering what my passion is.  I ‘like’ many things.  I’m good at many things.  But, what – if there were no limitations – would I do with my life?  I have no idea.  Sad, huh?

I often wonder if it was because of my childhood.  My up-bringing.  Please understand – I am NOT blaming my parents for a bad childhood.  I love my family.  I love my parents.  No question that they loved me.  But what I mean is – no one ‘taught’ my parents to have goals or dreams for their lives.  All they knew is that you got married, had kids and worked to support them. Period. 

So, they in turn didn’t teach me and my brother about goals and dreams.  Again – all we knew was to grow up, get married, start a family and make a living. Period.

I agree with Dr. Phil when he said that if you aren’t living your passion – then you are missing your true potential.  We should all find what drives us and enjoy our time here on earth.  Therefore, on this journey I am currently on with my Savior (please see my bio or read previous posts) – I am asking Him to reveal to me what my gift is.  What is my true calling.  Show me my true passion.

And, while I’m in this discovery mode….I’m also taking some baby steps to doing some things I’ve wanted to do for quite some time – as far as hobbies go.  I’ve put them off because of dedicating my time, energy and money to my family – my husband and kids have always come first.  I tend to put myself after everything and everyone else…and unfortunately, that is not always the best thing to do.

Not to get off track here – but here is an example of when it’s not so great to ALWAYS put others before yourself.  I have a lot of people that I work with that I like and they like me.  BUT – I have no real friends.  Why?  Because I ‘didn’t have time’ to invest in true friendship (or so I thought).  I put everything I am into my husband and kids.  If you have read previous blogs – you know that my husband left me out of the clear blue a few months back.  And most recently – my daughter and I have been in the worst place ever with each other.  I was sure I had lost her (but we’ve recently made amends).

But through all of that – I’ve come to realize that none of it would have been quite so devastating to me had I not put everything into just that part of my life.  I was completely lost without them.  Overnight (it seemed) two-thirds of my life was gone.  I should have depended on God more than a husband – a man should not be who makes me feel complete and important.  I needed to have a stronger relationship with my Savior.  And I should have known that I can’t be everything to everyone.  I wouldn’t be in a position of needing to rebuild everything had I led my life a little differently. 

If I had taken a little more time for myself – I would most likely have friends I could lean on.  I probably would not be overweight – because I would have been more attentive to my health and made time to exercise.  IF I had hobbies or interests, then I wouldn’t feel so alone during this time when my daughter is avoiding home.  Our home would most likely be a place of refuge rather than a place to avoid because of the depressing atmosphere.

Okay – my apologies for the little ‘rabbit trail’ I got off on….but the bottom line is that I need a purpose that is just for me.  I need to find my passion.  I need to find interests and to build myself up – to start my life anew.

For my ‘baby steps’ – I am picking up a hobby that I took a class on one time and loved it.  Stained Glass.  I have a work station set up and most of the supplies already.  Within a couple of weeks – I should have everything I need and be on to my first project!!

I also want to purchase my next camera upgrade.  I love photography and I am ready to experiment with what I can do.  Watch out people – woman with a camera on the loose! LOL

Finally – through all of my ramblings here – I am here to say that I hope you have identified your passion.  If not, I challenge you to find it.  As was mentioned in that interview today – start by TRYING something.  If it’s not for you, that’s okay….move on to something else.  Continue until you find what really gives you the satisfaction and enthusiasm that you deserve in your life!

Take care…


Random Stuff Today

Finally found some time to sit down and blog a little.  Problem is, I can’t quite get my brain working in that direction – so I have no idea what to write about.  So I guess this will be a mish-mash of random thoughts.

First of all, I have been a little down in the dumps these past few days.  Nothing major….but I think it’s still part of getting used to the fact that my marriage failed.  Dang that hurts.  I am NOT thrilled about this.  And honestly, not looking forward to going it alone.  But, I will not let it get me down for long – no sir-ee!

I also discovered that my payment for the electric bill bounced (stupid mistake on my part).  I have absolutely NO money until next Friday….so I’m expecting my power to be cut off this week.  First time ever.  That is humiliating and frustrating and makes me want to cry….but what can I do?  Before you ask – it was already past due.  And no, I have no family to ‘borrow’ from.  ‘sigh’

Have had a GREAT weekend with my son, though!  We’ve had fun!  I actually stayed home with him Friday.  That is because my soon-to-be-ex hubby doesn’t grasp the fact that a 4 yr old needs REST and a regular schedule.  He keeps him out at all hours of the night and constantly at someone else’s house – there is no down time.  So, by the time I get him – he’s worn out.  Therefore, I elected to stay home with him and let him sleep in.  And he definitely did that!

He even asked that we stay home today too.  So we hung out and played.  We played cars, Mario Bros. on Wii, and watched movies.  We then went outside and he took turns riding his motorized jeep and motorcycle.  I sat on the porch swing and read my Barnes & Noble NOOK.  Now we are settled in for the evening and we’re watching umpteen episodes of  ‘Blues Clues’ .

I rearranged my living room furniture twice today too.  Ended up with the way it was in the first place.  *sigh*

As far as my journey I’m on with God – it’s about the same.  I am seeing a LOT of things lately with very different eyes.  A lot of it is rather depressing in that I see where I screwed up and could/should have done things differently.  But, it’s too late now.  I’m older, fatter, slower, and soon to be single.    But, I trust God and know that He is revealing this stuff to me for a reason.

All I know is to tell others to NEVER take your relationships for granted.  Always maintain a servant heart.  And be thankful for every single moment you have with them!

Okay – gotta run now.

This N That

Hello!  Just checking in again.  It’s been a few days.  I keep having headaches lately – so by the time I get home, I’m not too interested in the computer.  I think it’s the front that finally blew in today.

First, let me tell you that I really learned a LOT at church this past weekend.  And I think EVERYONE who is in a relationship or thinking about a relationship should listen to this (see the one dated 9-19-2010).  Yes, it says it’s about sexual fulfillment – but don’t freak out or be turned away because you are already satisfied, thank you very much!  Just listen.  I would put money down that you learn a thing or two!  This is about RELATIONSHIPS not the actual act of sex.

Of course, as you know if you’ve been reading my posts – my hubby has moved out.  So, this particular sermon was not expected to speak to me much.  Boy was I wrong!  It did big time.  Not in just things that I think we could have done better in relating with each other – but other stuff too.  It was very enlightening.

Speaking of hubby – I can’t recall if I mentioned this before or not, but I had texted hubby one day a while back and asked if he would still be willing to go to marriage counseling.  After all, HE had suggested it prior to our little trip to the mountains.  And, even though we are separated doesn’t mean that we couldn’t try to work things out – right?  Well, he didn’t answer.  I let it go and didn’t request an answer.  Typically, when he doesn’t answer – it’s because the answer is ‘no’.

But, after the sermon, I really felt like I needed to try one last time with him.  So I asked again.  He clearly stated “No” this time.  So, I decided I better get my act together for real.  All this time, I kept hoping that there was some shred left.  Something that we could still hold on to and try to build from – know what I mean?

When he stated that he had no interest – it was a bit of a turning point for me and so I told him that I would let him go.  He thanked me.  He apologized for not making it work…..and assured me that this decision had nothing to do with another woman. Blah, blah, blah….

I then went to visit my attorney to see where I stood and what would need to happen to make this final.  Since hubby and I aren’t fighting over anything – it will be a simple process.  I hope.  Now, don’t get me wrong – I am not rushing out to get divorced.  I still don’t want it to happen – but I can’t make him love me either.  So I just need to be realistic.

I also have to work to get the money together….so it will be a while.

In the meantime…..I will journey on.  And LOTS of things have been taking place as far as God and me!  I will have to fill you in soon.

Take care!

Just Touching Base

I haven’t posted for a few days.  It’s been hectic around here.  I’m still on the emotional roller-coaster with my hubby.  So not much has changed.

I will say that I have been trying to sort out my feelings.  I feel like such an idiot on one hand.  And a quitter on the other.  And I suppose it will depend on the reader’s views and belief system in which one I would be labeled.

I can honestly say that I really CARE about my husband.  I even like him most of the time.  I heard a while back that Love is not so much a feeling as a choice.  If that is true – then I may love him too.  If it’s feelings…..well, then I can’t say that I do.  That part died quite some time ago.

I DO believe that God can move in our lives and if we are willing, He can heal and repair.  However, the key word is ‘willing’ – which is the difficult part.  I have made a conscious effort to be open to God’s will and allow Him to work in my life.  I desire to remain married because I know it’s God’s will AND I believe He can make a difference.  However, I also have very frank conversations with God.  And He knows that I don’t feel I can take my husband back and live the way we had been….there would definitely have to be changes made.  On BOTH our parts.

However, my hubby is not feeling the same.  He is fine to work with me (we work at the same place) – and we are doing fine with relating with each other when it comes to our son – for the most part.  BUT, that is it.  He is NOT willing to go to marriage counseling.  He is NOT willing to do anything more to try to repair our marriage.  So, knowing that God allows us free-will, I don’t see that things will get any better.

So, I went to visit an attorney today.  To see what it is going to cost me to ‘let my hubby go’ once and for all.  Yes, I know that I can wait it out and make hubby pay for the process…..but is that REALLY in my best interest?  I’m not so sure.  I do have to think about my future and my rights when it comes to our son.

Later, I told hubby I was going to ‘let him go’ – and he thanked me.  He apologized for not being able to ‘make things work’.  Dang that hurts.  I hate it.  But, life goes on.

So, I guess I simply ask for prayers from those who are praying people – that God be with us as we go through the process and ultimately that our little boy will be okay.  That hubby and I are able to create a secure and loving environment for our son.

In addition:  I have decided to sign up for Weight Watchers online.  Just to give me that additional boost I need.  I have been a little slow at the tracking part….because I tend to ‘forget’ (thank you Fibromyalgia).  But, I’m getting caught up and looking forward to getting this RIGHT!  Wish me luck!

Also due to the brain fog that comes with the Fibromyalgia – I have forgotten to take my St. John’s Wort for the past 3 days…..and boy, am I feeling it!  I hurt from head to toe……just about every inch of me.  I’ve placed the bottle where I cannot miss them in the morning – and we will hope that things get lined back out!  AND, I am continuing to pray and speak with God about my healing.  I believe it’s in process….it’s working…..it just takes time.

Been watching the new season line-up of network television shows this evening.  So far, nothing really excites me.  I will comment more on that later in the week when I get to see some more.

For now, I’m calling it a night.