Finally found some time to sit down and blog a little. Problem is, I can’t quite get my brain working in that direction – so I have no idea what to write about. So I guess this will be a mish-mash of random thoughts.
First of all, I have been a little down in the dumps these past few days. Nothing major….but I think it’s still part of getting used to the fact that my marriage failed. Dang that hurts. I am NOT thrilled about this. And honestly, not looking forward to going it alone. But, I will not let it get me down for long – no sir-ee!
I also discovered that my payment for the electric bill bounced (stupid mistake on my part). I have absolutely NO money until next Friday….so I’m expecting my power to be cut off this week. First time ever. That is humiliating and frustrating and makes me want to cry….but what can I do? Before you ask – it was already past due. And no, I have no family to ‘borrow’ from. ‘sigh’
Have had a GREAT weekend with my son, though! We’ve had fun! I actually stayed home with him Friday. That is because my soon-to-be-ex hubby doesn’t grasp the fact that a 4 yr old needs REST and a regular schedule. He keeps him out at all hours of the night and constantly at someone else’s house – there is no down time. So, by the time I get him – he’s worn out. Therefore, I elected to stay home with him and let him sleep in. And he definitely did that!
He even asked that we stay home today too. So we hung out and played. We played cars, Mario Bros. on Wii, and watched movies. We then went outside and he took turns riding his motorized jeep and motorcycle. I sat on the porch swing and read my Barnes & Noble NOOK. Now we are settled in for the evening and we’re watching umpteen episodes of ‘Blues Clues’ .
I rearranged my living room furniture twice today too. Ended up with the way it was in the first place. *sigh*
As far as my journey I’m on with God – it’s about the same. I am seeing a LOT of things lately with very different eyes. A lot of it is rather depressing in that I see where I screwed up and could/should have done things differently. But, it’s too late now. I’m older, fatter, slower, and soon to be single. But, I trust God and know that He is revealing this stuff to me for a reason.
All I know is to tell others to NEVER take your relationships for granted. Always maintain a servant heart. And be thankful for every single moment you have with them!
Okay – gotta run now.