I guess I should first explain to you how I currently stand. Then, in another blog or two, I will give a brief outline of my background/history. And, if you care to, feel free to journey alone with me to see what God has in store for my life now!
My husband decided to walk out on me last week. We weren’t arguing or anything. He just hops up all of a sudden, says he feels really bad – “but he just can’t be here anymore.” What!? “I just don’t want to do this anymore. I’m leaving.” Needless to say, I was left quite speechless for a bit. Yes, we’ve been struggling for quite some time (which I will explain in later posts) – but we were laying there cuddling and watching television and BAM! This happens out of the clear blue!
Please understand that I’m still reeling from all of this and am so exhausted I can hardly function. So if I don’t blog for a day or two in between at first – that would be the reason. Hang with me.
Our beautiful Four-Year-Old son is not handling it perfectly….but is okay so far. He tries real hard not to cry – he wants to be strong for his daddy. But he’s worn out – and I know its because of all of the stress.
My daughter (from a previous marriage) – is also on a roller-coaster of emotions too. I don’t think she realized how this would effect her. Again, because of the history here…..I will leave this alone until I can fill you in completely about her situation.
Part of the reasons for him walking out – is my health. He sees “himself pushing me around in a wheelchair w/an oxygen tank in 5 years. And he doesn’t want that.” Okay – so let me clarify to you that I am in NO WAY in that bad a shape. Yes, I have fibromyalgia – which means I am in constant pain. BUT, I have found how to lessen it and make it tolerable. And Yes, I am overweight. But I don’t have a lot of health issues related to it and I AM trying to lose some, thank you very much!
Again, I will say more later. But wanted to just say that even thru the stuff that has been happening this week – I’m still receiving God’s blessings! I had been praying for Him to move in my life and to reveal a path for me. And it’s happening!
I can hardly wait to tell you about it!
Until next time….if you are a praying person, please pray for my family. If not, that’s okay – please stick around just the same.