“A real friend never gets in your way–unless you happen to be on the way down.” — Wayne Dyer
“A true friend is someone who is there for you when they rather be anywhere else.” — Len Wein
“Excellence is the gradual result of always striving to do better.” — Pat Riley
“The greatest achievement is to outperform yourself.” — Denis Waitley
And finally: “God, grant me the serenity to ACCEPT the PEOPLE I cannot change, the courage to change the one I CAN, and the wisdom to know….it”s ME!” — John G. Miller
I feel that my journey is about to kick in gear. Sure, something is always happening and we are always experiencing and hopefully learning – but I ‘feel’ something coming my way. Not sure what it is – but I’m excited! I see things lining up in my life. So many prayers have been answered. Or better yet – I know that God has always provided for me and mine – but I am more aware of the answered prayers lately. I have been made more aware of how my thoughts and actions can hinder – but that if I stop and remind myself that I need to wait on God – Wow! It’s been so awesome!
I find myself wanting to shout it out to everyone and tell them all about what is happening – but of course, I realize that most folks would deem me a crazy person and/or be turned off and tune me out….so I refrain. I want to share with everyone each time a realization comes to me – but instead I make myself calm down and allow God to use me in the best way He sees fit.
One area that I am anxiously waiting upon the Lord to deal with is my Fibromyalgia. Actually the Fibro Fog bothers me more than the pain – but they go hand-in-hand. I find myself frustrated because I can’t get my thoughts together. I have always been a sharp, quick-thinking and detail-oriented person. But this Fibro Fog has taken a lot of that away from me. My blogging is a perfect example. I have many, many things I would like to write about – but am unable to get it done due to the scatter-brained thought processes I have now.
But that’s okay. I’m waiting. I have faith. In the meantime, it forces me to assess things that I probably took for granted in the past. It causes me to consider my relationship with God. It creates in me a stronger desire to trust and be dependent on Him. But just you wait – I believe that when there is full breakthrough in this area – it will be time for seeing some very real changes in my life!
Something else I’ve been thinking about quite a bit. I’ve probably touched on it in past posts – can’t recall. But…..I need a friend. I don’t have one. I have lots of people I care deeply about (coworkers, former coworkers, etc.) – but not a real friend. Yes, I’ve mentioned one over the past few months – but she and I have finally come to the conclusion that it’s difficult being close friends with someone you have absolutely nothing in common with other than you have known each other for years. We simply couldn’t find a way to connect.
So – why don’t I have a friend? Hmmmm….. Well, I think for one that since we moved around a lot while growing up – I learned to make friends easily but never got really close with them because we would always be moving on. We were very close as a family though – and so as an adult now, my family is who I am close to. I miss my brother so darn much it hurts – and I wish he lived closer….but that’s another story for another time.
When younger and single and a different lifestyle – yep, lots of friends that I hung out with then. When I got married – I was content to just be with my little family. But being single again and living a Christian lifestyle – I find it difficult to ‘meet’ people who I have enough in common with that we might be able to become friends.
I will admit that I have not ‘connected’ to the singles group at church for a couple of reasons. Some may say those are just excuses – and maybe they are – but for now, it’s the way it is for me. For one – I go to church on Saturdays because I want my son to have that exposure and to be involved in our church. On Sundays – he is with his father. The singles group meets on Sundays. So – why not get up and go again on Sunday? Yep, I’ve thought about it. A lot – but so far, I haven’t had the energy to do that…..I usually need at least one full day of nothing but rest at home in order to make it through the week at work without my Fibro interfering.
Getting back to the subject of a friendship for me – please pray that God will put the right person in my life to fulfill that need. Pray that we can be a blessing to each other and that we always keep God in the very center of it at all times!
Moving on now – here is something that I heard Creflo Dollar say the other day: “A tree bears fruit when it is exposed to sunlight and water. We bear fruit as we are exposed to SON-light and God’s living water.” I like that. Just let that sit with you a bit. What do you think? Isn’t it true?
Another thing I heard from someone else recently: We shouldn’t be amazed when supernatural things take place. If we are amazed, then we need to take a look at our hearts and our relationship with Christ. The speaker was trying to say that if we relate so much to this world that when we see supernatural things we are in awe of them – that maybe our focus is incorrect. But – at least from my view – it wouldn’t be amazement that it happened, but rather the awesomeness of witnessing the event! It makes my heart sing to witness awesome things from God. So I’m not sure I agree with this line of thought – we all perceive things differently, don’t we?
This reminds me of a time when a coworker had foundation stabilization work done on their home. Her husband had been paralyzed years prior and was in a wheelchair. He had recently fallen out of his wheelchair and broken his leg and had to have surgery. In an odd turn of events, she tripped while trying to learn to rollerblade and broke her own leg in two places. During this time, she and her husband had various companies coming out to give quotes on the work to be done on their home. They made their decision and came to an agreement with the company of their choice. At the end of the job, the owner of the company stopped by one evening and said that ‘God had laid it on his heart to not charge them for the work.’
I remember this like it was yesterday – but isn’t that awesome!? I’m sure some folks wouldn’t agree – but what I saw was God doing an awesome thing here! Not only was this man close to God, he was obedient to His prompting. In turn two people who were very used to being independent and taking care of their own needs – learned what it was like to experience God’s love. And all of the coworkers and friends of theirs had the opportunity to witness some supernatural work taking place!
And finally, I will end with a little heart-medicine….. My ex-husband has been out of the country (visiting the new wife) for a little over 3 weeks. He called to speak with our son one time for about 5 minutes. After all this time, I figured my son would be stuck to him like glue when he returned (because he was always very attached to his daddy). Dad just returned last week and so my son spent this past Friday night, Saturday and Sunday with his dad. He tells me when he gets home Sunday night – ‘I’m sure glad to be back home with you, Mommy.’ Can you say Awwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hey – you take the little sweetheart moments where you can find ‘em, folks! They will be grown and gone before you know it!
That pretty much sums it up – I’ve been through a LOT lately! But then again, haven’t we all? So let me start this out by saying that my heart goes out to you in what you’ve been going through (and may still be going through). I despise hearing ‘things will get better, hang in there’ – but you know what? It’s true.
I was telling my dad (he’s my friend, my confidant) that I feel like I’ve just come out of a very long and painful journey. Feel like I’ve been beat up pretty consistently for the past 4-5 years. And though I can honestly say that things are better and getting brighter….it seems to be a slow process. I feel that my body is having to go slow at the healing process. The awesome thing is – I DO feel the process. It is getting better and as it is, I have time to reflect on what went down, how it might have been different ‘if’ and the lessons that I’ve learned.
I’ve been hurt deeper than I ever thought possible – but I CHOOSE not to allow that to make me an angry, bitter person. I’m not allowing it to make me a person fearful of my future or of relationships with people. I just have to remember that everyone is on a journey – everyone screws up – and though their actions in relation to me were unacceptable on so many levels……they will figure it out one way or another. What goes around, comes around….right? ;-D
Lost my mother. That one hurt too. And lonely – because she was my best friend. I think that was because we moved around a lot when I was growing up….so it didn’t make sense to become too close with anyone because before you know it, we were packing up and moving on. I made LOADS of friends….just not close friends. Sadly, I’m now realizing the full impact of that these days. I long to have true friends – REAL friends – but because I never learned how to be one, I suppose….I don’t have any. And now that I’m single once again – I’m finding that to be a very lonely situation to be in.
The non-stop stress that I’ve been under both in my personal life and work has really taken its toll on me too. Yes, I am over my ideal weight. Yes, I hate it. But no, I can’t just ‘fix it’. This seems to be a part of my healing that will take some time. But I have faith that I will get there eventually. I won’t get into all of the physical ailments that I’ve acquired through this crazy mess right now – but let me say, I am definitely paying the price for not being more attentive to my own well-being!
Through all of this – I know that one cannot let the hardships of life get you down. Or, at least you can’t let it keep you down! We all get knocked off of our feet – but we must get back up and keep on living. Yes, it can seem like the darkness will never go away…..but trust me, it does. For example – my light at the end of the tunnel is shining in many ways for me!
- Yes, I experienced a painful divorce, but through time I have healed to the point that I can now see the stress of our marriage was not good for me. I can now feel myself getting healthier and stronger.
- I am losing weight slowly just because the stress has been lifted. Meaning – I’m not dieting, but it’s just coming off now!
- I have a new job with practically no burden of stress…..and I ENJOY it!!! It’s been a long time since I’ve actually enjoyed working.
- I am under less financial strain
- I have time to read – which I love!
- My mental function is operating better….we are still working on this one….but its better
- I FEEL better physically!
- I’m laughing out loud again
- My kids are happier too!
My list could go on, but you get the point! And to top it off, I stumbled across a wonderful book and author who reminds me often to laugh and to live life at the fullest no matter where you are at the moment! You can check her out here: http://stephaniemcafee.wordpress.com/2012/01/14/what-my-book-is-really-about-by-stephanie-mcafee/
And get her book here: http://www.amazon.com/Diary-Mad-Fat-Girl-ebook/dp/B004H8GVHC
A CRAIG’S LIST PERSONALS AD
To the Guy Who Tried to Mug Me in Downtown Savannah night before last.
Date: 2010-09-27, 1:43 a.m. E.S.T.
I was the guy wearing the black Burberry jacket that you demanded that I hand over, shortly after you pulled the knife on me and my girlfriend, threatening our lives. You also asked for my girlfriend’s purse and earrings. I can only hope that you somehow come across this rather important message.
First, I’d like to apologize for your embarrassment; I didn’t expect you to actually crap in your pants when I drew my pistol after you took my jacket.. The evening was not that cold, and I was wearing the jacket for a reason.. my girlfriend was happy that I just returned safely from my 2nd tour as a Combat Marine in Afghanistan .. She had just bought me that Kimber Custom Model 1911 .45 ACP pistol for my birthday, and we had picked up a shoulder holster for it that very evening. Obviously you agree that it is a very intimidating weapon when pointed at your head … isn’t it?!
I know it probably wasn’t fun walking back to wherever you’d come from with that brown sludge in your pants. I’m sure it was even worse walking bare-footed since I made you leave your shoes, cell phone, and wallet with me. [That prevented you from calling or running to your buddies to come help mug us again].
After I called your mother or ” Mom ma” as you had her listed in your cell, I explained the entire episode of what you’d done. Then I went and filled up my gas tank as well as those of four other people in the gas station, — on your credit card. The guy with the big motor home took 153 gallons and was extremely grateful!
I gave your shoes to a homeless guy outside Vinnie Van Go Go’s, along with all the cash in your wallet. [That made his day!]
I then threw your wallet into the big pink “pimp mobile” that was parked at the curb …. after I broke the windshield and side window and keyed the entire driver’s side of the car.
Later, I called a bunch of phone sex numbers from your cell phone. Ma Bell just now shut down the line, although I only used the phone for a little over a day now, so what ‘s going on with that? Earlier, I managed to get in two threatening phone calls to the DA’s office and one to the FBI, while mentioning President Obama as my possible target.
The FBI guy seemed really intense and we had a nice long chat (I guess while he traced your number etc.).
;In a way, perhaps I should apologize for not killing you … but I feel this type of retribution is a far more appropriate punishment for your threatened crime. I wish you well as you try to sort through some of these rather immediate pressing issues, and can only hope that you have the opportunity to reflect upon, and perhaps reconsider, the career path you’ve chosen to pursue in life.. Remember, next time you might not be so lucky. Have a good day!
Thoughtfully yours, Semper Fi,
Words for Women to Live By (Received in an email recently)
1. Aspire to be Barbie – the witch has everything.
2. If the shoe fits – buy them in every color.
3. Take life with a pinch of salt… A wedge of lime, and a shot of tequila.
4. In need of a support group? – Cocktail hour with the girls!
5. Go on the 30 day diet. (I’m on it and so far I’ve lost 15 days).
6. When life gets you down – just put on your big girl panties and deal with it.
7. Let your greatest fear be that there is no PMS and this is just your personality.
8. I know I’m in my own little world, but it’s ok. They know me here.
9. Lead me not into temptation, I can find it myself.
10. Don’t get your knickers in a knot; it solves nothing and makes you walk funny.
11. When life gives you lemons – buy some Coronas.
12. Forget about the perfect man – he’s living in San Fran with his boyfriend.
13. Keep your chin up, only the first 40 years of parenthood are the hardest.
14. If it has tires or testicles it’s gonna give you trouble.
15. By the time a women realizes her mother was right, she has a daughter who thinks she’s wrong.
‘Good friends are like stars… You don’t always see them, but you know they are always there’
‘Remember yesterday, dream about tomorrow, but live for today’.
Now smile and share with any girl wasting time at work, suffering from a hangover, or just suffering from life, she might need a reason to smile!