Sometimes It Hurts First
As mentioned in my previous post – I am on the road to a better life, a better me. I stumbled across a weight-loss program that focused more on the toxins etc in your body rather than the typical plans everyone is familiar with these days. It teaches you how the things you put in your body such as preservatives, sugars, etc. can negatively affect the way your body functions. It teaches you how to detox your system so you can get back on track.
SO – I decided to do the plan and get my system ‘cleaned out’ and refreshed – rebooted, if you will. While building up to the actual detox process, you prep by eating nothing but vegetables and very lean chicken or fish. No biggie – I like veggies and chicken! I got this in the bag! Or so I thought….
Actually, you can’t have anything that has gluten, sugars, vinegar, grains. Do you know how hard that is in reality!?!?! It’s tough. Every time I thought of something I could eat – I was wrong. Don’t get me wrong – I have no problem with veggies at all – but after a while, it’s difficult to find variable ways to prepare them. Even dressings are near impossible to find that don’t have at least vinegar in them.
Needless to say – I’ve struggled. However, I did stick to it enough to lose some weight. So next comes the detox. I started it on Saturday and instantly I have had the worst fibromyalgia flare-up ever! The pain has been almost unbearable. My brain is foggy and I can’t seem to think clearly or to focus properly. I was starting to get concerned.
During this time, I struggled in my thought life – did I ‘misunderstand’ what I thought God was leading me to do concerning my weight and more importantly health issues? Is this the wrong thing to do? Am I once again trying to ‘do it on my own’? I could drive myself crazy with all of the ‘what ifs’ – which means I was falling back into my old routine – and stressing over things – again!
I decided that I was going to stick this out and shut those chronic negative thoughts down immediately. I contacted my doctor about what was going on and he explained that it is part of the process. He called it Health Crisis – where your body is actually ridding itself of the toxins and garbage that has loaded up over the years. BUT, if I stick with it, I will begin to start feeling much better and have increased energy.
SO – I am in constant prayer and seeking God’s hand in leading me through this new but difficult journey. I realize that sometimes we must weather the difficult, the stuff that hurts in order to come out on top at the end.
Thank You, Father for being there for me. Thank You for blessing me with the ability to become victorious!